I'm back. For good.

If you didn't notice I completely failed my last cleanse, like TOTAL FAILURE! One week into it I couldn't do it. So I had to stop. Ginger said I was doing my body more harm than good when I had so many negative emotions I was working on.

I'm sure even some of you are going to be like WHAT? She cleanses and does these weird things, cause we are probably new friends and you didn't realize weight loss and sticking with something is a difficult thing for me.

Well, I have a few things to post. I haven't known how I was going to word this re-entry post in to my blog.

I feel like a sinner asking for forgiveness and not knowing how to go about it. So I'm just jumping in.

The last 9 months of my life have not been the happiest, most peaceful in my life. Some you may be thinking, "Oh whatever you just went to Europe, rough life". Well, thankfully, I had that to look forward to. It's been really dark in my head and I've had to really dig deep and figure out what and who I am going to be.

Some of you may be like, "Well, tell us, tell us what has been happening." And all I can say is...

Wouldn't you like to know! :)

I just can't. So, to begin I realized at the end of April after three months of crying every day, that something was not right and I needed help. So, off to a counselor I went. And what did she suggest?

An Antidepressant. Shocking, I know. So to get an anti-depressant I had to go to a Dr. to get a prescription. At this point I realized I think I'm about as low as I've ever been in my life. So I knew I needed something. Crying every day is NOT normal in case you're wondering. LOL.

Then I had the wonderful opportunity to tell a complete chauvinist of a Dr. my tale and why I felt like I needed an anti-depressant. Unfortunately, depression and anxiety run in my family, and so I was aware of anti-depressants that have helped my family. He suggested one of those would be great. I got my prescription and after two days of taking it, threw it away. Now you may be wondering why in the world would someone do that!? Well, I remember a very special person in my life telling me, "I think everyone could use some extra serotonin." Well she is right! That is what most anti-depressants are made of, except they are a man made form of it.

I realized two days into taking Prozac, yah!, that I was going to get addicted to it. The dr. also gave me a drug that is similar to how people drink a glass of wine to take the edge off, which was HIGHLY addictive. I realized me and my addictive personality and these drugs were going to turn me into something I had worked really hard to not turn into. I saw myself 10 years from now looking for drugs, being that person addicted to prescription medications. I threw everything in the garbage and went to the internet!

I went to amazon.com and typed in serotonin in the search bar to see if there was an all natural form of the drug, aside from getting it in my meat, cheese, etc, which I have greatly limited in my life over the past couple of years. Well low and behold I found this!

This may help YOU! It may not. But I felt I had an obligation to let others know how this has really helped me.

I have been so much better since taking this. I also increased my magnesium and all my other vitamins by 3x for the first month or so, to ramp up my bodies deficiencies. Whenever your body is under stress, ie exercise, work stress, kid stress, whatever stress it might be, your body burns through minerals like crazy! And since most of our food is deficient in minerals, all of our bodies are screaming for minerals! I took 9 pills of my cal/mag/d vitamin a day. That was 1800mg of calcium, 600 mg magnesium, and 1800 IU's of vitamin d, along with my daily vitamin and the other supplements I take.

I finally felt better. Nothing was getting done in my house unless it was ABSOLUTELY necessary until I started taking care of myself with all of this. I stopped ripping everyone's heads off. I could finally think clearly and get things done. I could make a list of what needed to get done that day, instead of wandering around the house and nothing getting done. I got done more the first few days of taking this serotonin than I had the past few months.

*This is not easy to say, but here it is. I hope it can help someone. I feel strongly that antidepressants are VERY useful for a majority of the population, but I felt I could use an alternative. Please talk with your DR. before stopping your anti-depressant or starting this all natural serotonin.

Next, I started making my own all natural deodorant! LOVE IT!!! If you'd like the recipe message me and I will get it to you. :)

Lastly, I had a friend ask to do a juice fast/cleanse.

Starting tomorrow, the juice fast begins and then on Thursday her and I will begin a cleanse. If you are interested in doing one or both of these, let me know! :)

Much love and thanks for letting me get myself right!